10 THINGS I DO NOT FIND BEAUTIFUL NOW, BUT WILL FIND BEAUTIFUL IN MEMORIES

1.  The sprawling over-clustered nature of ethnic enclaves
2.  Grief
3.  $2 costume jewelry at the flea market
4.  living in a lacerating duality
5.  Summer's humidity
6.  vacuuming the kitchen counter
7.  Kimichi stew
8.  my current state of ignorance
9.  The way my mother insists on cooking steaks to assimilate into American culture but when she cooks them they get so hard and burnt that they have absolutely no fat on them and are essentially just pieces of char but I always just chew really long and hard and eat the entire thing and always affirm her as the greatest steak griller I know
10. My mother's nagging advice
11. strip malls
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